Becoming a Spiritual Lighthouse in Deep AwakeningBy Tchiki Davis, M.A., Ph.D.
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But in deeper awakening, something far more destabilizing can occur. The insight does not simply remain a perspective that offers freedom. The structures that once created the illusion begin to dismantle at a functional level. It is not just that you see there is no doer. The doing mechanism itself begins to go offline. It is not that you understand you were never in control. The felt sense of control dissolves. It is not that you choose to surrender your will. Will itself stops operating.
This phase can feel very disorienting. And yet, it may also be an inflection point into what might be called the lighthouse stage. Here, personal will stops operating (even when you want it to), emotional continuity thins, future orientation collapses, and yet something else becomes available. What remains is a body that simple radiates, listens and responds. It is like a vessel. A beacon. A lighthouse. This article explores what happens as personal agency transforms into openness. Get The FREE Awakening eBook✓ Discover what awakening is like
✓ Learn about the four stages between awakening & enlightenment ✓ Get exercises to progress Sign up below to get our FREE eBook. Experiences That Go OfflineOne of the most disorienting aspects of deep awakening is that capacities you once relied on begin to fail. This does not feel like laziness, or depression, or a lack of motivation. It is not an insight or understanding about the way things really are. It is a structural shift in the way the mind functions, and thus the way YOU function.
No More Doer The doer goes offline. It's not that actions don't arise; it's that they no longer arise from concepts, thoughts, or beliefs, and they are no longer oriented towards a future or outcome. You may have noticed that most work is done for the purpose of getting a paycheck in the future, or sometimes, to make some kind of impact on someone or something in the future. When the mind no longer holds 'reasons' or 'outcomes', doership no longer arises for reasons or outcomes. The inner mechanism that used to push, plan, and execute complex goals can no longer be found by the mind and so it simply does not respond. The decision to "go to work tomorrow" doesn't necessarily lead you to actually go to work tomorrow. The mental pusher is gone. No More 'Responsible One' The sense of responsibility dissolves as well. There may be a quiet recognition that you were never responsible for outcomes to begin with. Actions occurred, consequences followed, but there was never a separate controller behind them. As this recognition deepens, the actions that were done simply because one believed they were 'responsible' no longer arise. This can feel freeing, but it can also feel destabilizing in a world built on accountability. I was doing my taxes as this was dissolving and this will likely be the last time I'll do my taxes on my own. There is just very little sense of responsibility. No More Goals Future focus becomes inaccessible. Reading self-help or nonfiction books no longer works because the mind can no longer imagine outcomes or goals in the same way. It used to seem like the "I" took a series of steps to reach some goal in the future. But when the "I", the steps, and the goal are all transparent, the advice in books just looks like it's pointing at nothing. No More Mental Organization Conceptual organizing weakens. The information that was once easy to pull up from memory, synthesize, and use as material for a response is difficult to locate and work with using the mind. You remember that there is a whole conceptual filing cabinet on a given topic, but the mechanisms that sort, categorize, and organize this information cannot retrieve it on demand. If information wants to come up it will, but there is no "I" or doer that can retrieve it at will. No More Categorizing Discernment, or the ability to distinguish categories like true/false, good/bad, correct/incorrect, begins to blur. If a student asks you a question, the mind no longer uses the perspective of a self as a tool for choosing answers. When you have no self with a perspective, all answers are equally true and false and so the mind can't select one. No More Comparison or Judgement The comparison function weakens. When forced to evaluate or judge, there may be blankness, waiting, or exhaustion. In earlier awakening, acceptance or non-judgment felt like something the "I" could do. Now, there are no longer conceptual categories, so it's simply that the mind no longer has the tools to compare two things. If two things are not held in different categories by the mind, they are no longer judged as different. If good/bad aren't real categories and thus are no longer represented in the mind, how would one judge anything or anyone to be either good or bad, right or wrong, real or unreal? No More Knowing The knower goes offline. There may be gaps of complete nothingness where there is no awareness, no knowing, no experience, no existence, not even nothing. It becomes increasingly clear that understanding is manufactured by the mind. Nothing can actually be known. No More Mental Continuity Memory-based continuity weakens. You cannot reliably find thoughts or recreate feelings from the past—from last year, from yesterday, or even from a moment ago. If you try to remember an old hurt or joy, the memory might play like a movie (or it might not play at all). The feeling of love, sadness, anger, gratitude, or forgiveness that you experienced in the past can no longer reliably be pulled up into the present moment using thoughts. None of this is realization, which is at the insight/mind level (5D). Here, you discover these things to be true and yet they continue to operate mostly as normal. This is deconstruction at the function/body level (late 6D). The body is beginning to let go of the illusions so deeply that they no longer arise in the brain. Once these realizations are embodied, they no longer arise in the body/brain. The Functional Dismantling That Leads to the Lighthouse Stage
Approaching The Lighthouse StageDeconstruction at the function/body level is the end of spiritual teaching. The ability to distribute knowledge is gone. If something doesn't want to arise in the mind, it won't arise. Therefore, you may not be able to answer a student question, offer advice, share a particular anecdote, describe a practice, or even show up to a meeting... and yet, sometimes you do. Nothing is certain. Nothing is predictable. Nothing is controllable.
You cannot even force yourself to remain as consciousness. The embodied knowing that consciousness isn't real or permanent can result in reality, itself, flickering on and off. Sensations Lose Their RealityAs the "I" stops functioning, sensation also reorganizes. You might squeeze your arm and notice that the sensation is less intense. Sensations no longer feel precisely located in space. They are no longer the 'truth' or 'ground of being'. They are just another construction. There is no such thing as a ground of being.
This is the dissolution of body mapping and proprioception. Normally, touch occurs with instant spatial knowing. There is a clear sense of “my" arm "here.” In deeper awakening stages, sensation arises without any mental labeling. Or, sensation barely arises at all. What, other than a thought or mind, would tell you that the feeling of wind on your cheeks is different than:
Sensation isn't a real separate thing that taps into a real separate "ground of experience" called pure awareness. Sensation = Thought = Belief = Story = Awareness. Here, the mind no longer categorizes these as separate or even labels them as real. It is not that everything merges into a blur (although things can get a bit blurry at times). It is that the mental mechanisms that made separation appear real no longer operate. The Lighthouse StateIf the dismantling continues, a new mode of operating may stabilize. In this mode, there is no mind analyzing situations. No doer strategizing responses. No teacher with knowledge to share. No conceptual frameworks to access and share with others.
There is listening. Receptivity. Emanation. And sometimes a response. The response does not come from knowledge, mind, understanding, or knowing—it's not something that the mind stored from a past experience, searches for when interacting with others, and then speaks. In fact, that search function, where awareness goes inward to find information, barely functions at all. So responding simply Is. Words (or silence) arise through the body, calibrated to what is needed in the collective field (or consciousness). These words may lead to an insight or an awakening in the apparent other person, or they may lead to triggering or anger, fear, indifference, avoidance, denial, or any other experience. None of these reactions are wrong (or right). They are just what is happening. A Lighthouse Just Glows The lighthouse doesn't claim responsibility for either positive or negative responses. This is in part because positive and negative are the same thing (they only seem different when labeled by the mind). It is in part because there is no attachment to outcome. And it is in part that there is no "I" to claim it. When someone shares their gratitude, there is nothing in the lighthouse to receive it. When someone shares their disagreement or rejection, the lighthouse just continues to shine. Both gratitude and anger are distortions. Flowing In the channeled material known as The Law of One, Ra speaks of entities who complete individual lessons and remain nearly formless in service to the All. These lighthouse beings are described as having no will of their own, only the All’s will flowing through them. Whether one interprets this metaphorically or literally, the experiential description resonates with this stage. The stripping away of the doer, the individual will, and even the ability to know or work a regular job leaves a semi-functioning form that simply responds. Words may appear or they may not. Is "Giving Light" A Real Job?From the outside, a human lighthouse can look like a person with poor functioning. If they cannot strategize, teach what they know, or force productivity, what are they for? But lighthouses have their own role to play.
Although they do not go out to the ships and "guide" them through the waters, their clarity allows everyone the ability to navigate dark waters a bit more easily. And although they can no longer go out into the world to create or secure the resources they need to shine, there seem to be lighthouse keepers who somehow know when to come to them and provide the needed resources that enable them to keep doing their quiet work. The TransitionWhen moving from a normal functioning human into a lighthouse, deep terror often surfaces. It no longer makes sense to teach or guide people. It no longer makes sense to participate in a capitalist trade-time-for-money arrangement. Like a lighthouse, you're simply shining. Most people will be completely unaware that your light helped them on their way.
Trust Without a functioning doer, there is no choice to trust or not-trust. Trust is all that's left, and even that is an inaccurate description. You simply continue to shine with no guarantee that a lighthouse keeper will come and with no ability to create or secure the resources that you know you will need to keep shining. The Fear Thoughts may arise, "What if the universe does not support the shining? What if I dissolve into complete non-function and I do not have the money to eat or have a room over my head?" One doesn't become a lighthouse by choice, because no "doer" would choose this level of incapacity and dissolution. It happens on its own. This is not choosing to quit your job because you see it's all an illusion. It is the deconstruction of the mental mechanisms that make it possible to function in the modern, conceptual world. The body still functions (for the most part), but there is just no way to interact through mind anymore. And the modern world is predominantly mind. What Actually Happens If one really is a lighthouse, then separation has dissolved extensively. This is not just the separation between self and everything else (which is what most spiritual teachers talk about). It is the dissolution of the background too, all the separations that seemed real within the ground or consciousness. The experience no longer has the mental tools it used to create reasons, causes, differences, or meanings in anything. This means that it is obvious that to the lighthouse that it and the lighthouse keeper are not separate. If the lighthouse is to continue shining, lighthouse keepers will continue to show up. It's actually quite beautiful. In my case, many of my 'lighthouse keepers' are not awake at all and they have no idea about the role they play in maintaining the light. Awakeness or non-awakeness makes no difference—everything is a part of the unfolding whether it knows it or not. We Are All Vessels We are all transparent vessels being moved about in ways that are impossible to know and understand. The only difference between a so-called enlightened person and an 'asleep' person is that they don't realize the role they play, or that it all part of a divine play. The people who have provided me money when I needed it are generally not spiritual seekers who have donated to knowingly support this lighthouse. Few of the people who have brought money to me know anything about my awakening at all. Rather, the universe continues to find clever ways for money to show up.
If the universe actually wants lighthouses, then it has to support them enough to survive. Because to be a lighthouse is to live as a highly-dissolved, highly-aware, highly-compassionate, and yet semi-functional presence. Beyond InsightIt is important to emphasize that this stage is not superior. It is not an achievement. It is not a badge of enlightenment. In fact, it is often terrifying, disorienting, and difficult.
Many people stabilize earlier in awakening, integrating insight with continued functional agency. Then can then teach, answer questions, and continue to function in normal jobs. This is beautiful and important work. In contrast, the lighthouse stage involves the dismantling of mental structures that make certain types of functioning possible. It can limit conventional productivity and require significant practical support. It is not something to pursue as a goal (but of course, you don't have a choice anyway). It simply is one path or manifestation of All That Is. Final Thoughts on Becoming a Spiritual LighthouseBecoming a lighthouse, or beacon, in deep awakening is not a romantic transformation. It is not a series of insights but rather the deeper embodiment of these insights such that much of the operating machinery of this reality no longer arises.
In this deep surrender, a different mode of service can emerge. Not strategic. Not effortful. Not identity based. Just availability to All That Is. |
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